Well.....It has been a very long time since I've been on here, let alone post anything.
I have been at my mom's most of my time. Mom is slowly withering away. Every morning she wakes up and asks us, " Why am I still here?" Then she pulls her blankets up over her face and cries like a baby. It is so hard to watch.
Mom sleeps most of the time now. She eats virtually nothing, maybe a bite here and a bite there.
She told me today that she never knew that dying would be so hard. It breaks my heart. She tried to get out of bed the other day by herself.....needless to say she had another bad fall. We are to a point that we are trying to have 2 people with her 24/7. Mom has been lying in that bed now for 3 months. I am just happy that we have been able to keep her from having any skin break down, thus no bed sores. We are at that point where we have turned it over to our Heavenly Father.

I have been living on Pepsi so I have put on some weight......this makes me very sad.
But I'm not going to worry about that right now. I'll work on that later. Please keep us in your prayers.....we could use all the prayers we can get!

This has been a very hard week. On Sat. my mom fell and fractured her pelvis in two places. We brought her home on Mon. on hospice after signing her DNR. She has to have 24/7 care so we are taking turns staying with her. It is so hard seeing her like this. She cannot put any weight on her right side and is totally bed ridden. My mom has never in her life just laid in bed. It is so hard on her. She has lost another 10 pounds so is now under 90 pounds. We cry a lot and our hearts are having a very hard time excepting the that she is going to leave us....but our heads tell us she is ready and wants to be with daddy. I can only pray for strength...it's so hard!

GOOD NEWS !!!!

I'm going to be a Grandma again. This time it's not an April Fools joke ;-)

Well I had my colonoscopy yesterday. They removed 2 polypes , one 3 mm and one 8 mm. They have sent them into pathology to be biopsied. I should have the results in 7 to 10 days.
I'm sure glad I don't have to do that again for a while!

This has been a crazy few weeks....I have an appointment with Dr, Hixon on Tues.
I am so afraid that he is going to tell me I have the C word :-( Or maybe that I need to have a portion of my bowel removed and have to use the awful bags. It's gotten to be really scary so please remember little ole me in your prayers. I have horriable thoughts running through my head....Maybe I need to go See HARRY POTTER and the Half Blood Prince AGAIN!!!!! Take my mind off the situation for just about 3 hours. ! Danyel is going to have to take me to St. George for my procedure on Tuesday.It can take up to three + hours. I will just be glad to get it over and done with.

My cousin and his wife are going through what I would concider one of the tuffest things parents can go through, Their son Justin ( 25 )has come up missing, He hasn't been seen since Monday. There has been no hits on his credit cards....his phone is either turned off or the batterie is dead. He was suppose to meet his parents for lunch but never showed up', nor did he show up to work. His car is also missing. I can only imagine their pain, I was told they have brought the FBI into the investigation........pray for good results.

I am so sad I missed all the fun the last few days. I have been sick so didn't get in on the water fight yesterday.....or the races today. We had a BBQ last night and the weather turned nasty, so we ended up all cramming into my little house! I wasn't a very good hostess with not feeling good. Sorry about that everybody. We will have to do it again when I feel better.

Robbie's red healer ( Ranger ) died today. I have never cried so hard about a dog dying. He was a loving dog / puppy he was only about 8 mo. old. & Robbie's best friend. He is having a hard time with loosing his dog.